“Punishment”

“ It’ s always better to accept the fact you are not appreciated than to insist yourself to someone who never sees your worth “.
Love, what is the meaning of this? For me, love is complicated because based on my experienced I had blamed myself because I was madly in love with a guy who doesn’t deserved my love for him. I was so wrong because I’d wasted a lot of time for loving him . My life become miserable I was so depressed and cried all the day when we are broke up and thinking how can I moved on. God punished me for being a bad person when I had a boyfriend especially in my study, I got a low grades and I’ m no longer scholar and even my family hated me. Sometimes I’ll asked myself, why I made those terrible mistakes.
My heart suffered a lot, I was physically and emotionally maltreated lately even now I don’t know who I am, maybe this is the first time when I had a boyfriend and I was so desperate when my boyfriend left me . Those all memories that I would like to forget but still it made me firmer. And I couldn’t help but smile while reminiscing about the adversities I had been through. Time flew by as I did everything to survived, sometimes I could no longer believed how I really overcome those obstacles I had suffered.
Now, I’ll think of the things and try to make some plans to get back my old life. And now I have more strength to face all obstacle because I know that I have my true friends to lean on, my family who were always there at my side to help me and most especially God who create this world. I believe in sayings that “we should not lose our faith because God has plans to make our life better than we expected” for you to be happy we should know our desires and make a way to achieve it because if you know how to die you know how to live. And I believed that mistakes that you’ve done in the past will be your guide to make things right in the future. And even though you give your best but without faith in God will be useless.
Pray every day to strengthen your spirituality and it will give you more liveliness to live your life and have courage to fight for another days that will come.